Death (Very Mysterious)
January 30, 2014
I overheard a woman say to her friend that some other woman’s “father died, very mysteriously, from, uh…an, uh, explosion.”
There doesn’t seem to be a mystery. The cause of death seems concrete.
He died, very mysteriously, falling from a third-story parking garage to the concrete below.
The wolf, as far south as Missouri, died, very mysteriously, from a 300-yard rifle shot.
The sparrow died, very mysteriously, when it mistook the pane-glass window for open air.
The spider died, very mysteriously, when a boot landed on it from above.
The lifelong smoker died, very mysteriously, from complications of cancer.
Everyone died, very mysteriously, from [anything] and it was painful.
Sorry for your loss, lady. It’s not your fault living and dying seems so mysterious.
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Living is Heavy Business
October 4, 2013
You wake in the morning
and everything is golden.
The earth has made another small rotation,
still revolving around the sun
which now cuts through the blinds.
The air is cool when you pull back the curtains,
coffee brewing, while the news turns to music.
Then life starts happening, the parts that make living
heavy business.
You have to go to work or school, or both
at this age. I’m twenty-seven now,
against some odds, cruising toward the old man
everyone knows I’ve always been. You find out
Grandma is in the hospital again, your little brother
whose diapers you changed, is one slip away
from prison, you battle who you used to be,
who you want to be, you battle to be who you are,
someone you know as well as the neighbor
across the street cultivating the perfect yard.
All of a sudden that light that was golden
turns red, the sky pink and impossible blue.
The insects start in with their hallucinogenic rhythms
and everything else shuts up and you have no clue
what to do with yourself. There is wine and bourbon,
your books, your porch and cigarettes, your beliefs,
which seem silly the higher the moon rises in the sky.
There is your love, if you’re lucky, and if you are
there is the impending weight of it all running out.
You take a long walk in orange streetlights, wishing
for darkness in a forest, or company. You walk
until you grow tired, done,
feeling like this could be the moment it all caves in,
the sun and moon and all, when its nothing
but disjointed dreams and wasted time,
when there is no time at all. You make it
to bed with a book or a movie and enter
a fantasy before sleep. Tomorrow you wake up
and there are still occupied hospitals,
prisons, battle fields, factories, restaurants
and theaters, and you know nothing is real,
but everyone, everything, is alive
and living is heavy business.
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We’ll All Need An Usher One Day
June 8, 2012
Sat under a tree
and watched a bird die.
Sat there next to it
talking, crazy, so
it wouldn’t feel alone
when it died. Feeling…
Like I know what birds
might feel; broken neck,
close to death, singing,
flying. Either way
I sat there talking
to the bird, its head
flopped off to one side,
until that last time
its eyes opened wide
(Did it look at me?)
then closed on what’s next.